I’ve seen heaven
And hell too
They both exist
On earth
Just like you do
I’ve seen heaven
And hell too
They both exist
On earth
Just like you do
Bachpan se hi mere liye ek cup chai ka matlab sirf ek cup chai se nahi tha. Usse kuch bohot badhkar tha. Kyunki chai ki har pyaali mein chupa hota tha Ma ka pyaar aur Papa ka dulaar. Thodi thandi hote hote usme bhaiya ki meethi takraar bhi simat jaati thi.
Aaj mai un sab se duur “apne” ghar mein hu. Par yahan bhi apnepan ka ehsaas to ek cup chai se hi milta hai – jo roz subah uthte hi pati apne haath se banakar pilaata hai. Aur aapko ek mazze ki baat batau? Usko khud chai pasand nahi hai.
The thing about promises is that you can
Make them, break them, hold them and steal them
They can be pulled in any and every direction
And yet
The promise of a promise
Is the sweetest hope
And on some days
A promise of tomorrow
Is what keeps us going
Let me voice an unpopular opinion today. Believe it, if you will. Love doesn’t happen to you nor do you fall in it. No. Love is something that you find when you go looking – for it, for yourself, for a reason, or for simply a way to live. Love is something that you learn and lean into. Learn the person before you, unravel their layers, recognise every nuance, accept the idiosyncrasies. Lean into the feeling of having your heart flutter and calm down simultaneously once it’s accepted someone as its own. You love, willingly and consciously, with everything. Because, you don’t love because, you love despite. Despite everything that could go wrong, despite all the odds stacked against, despite the fleeting moment that is this life on earth. Because love is what your soul is made of. And it will always find its way.
June has always been a little bit of a conundrum for me. It brings with it the promise of a vacation under sunny skies, but with a pang of fear for leaving everything behind. Just like the washed away sand on the beaches I like to visit.
June marks the middle of another year and I can never tell if I’ve done just enough to be able to relax now and justify it as a good year, or if I’m just getting started.
June has a way of breaking past all the barriers I’ve constructed and ridding me of all disillusions. For June always is what it is, and never what it ought to be.
And repeat after me –
Today I will not let my anxiety get the better of me
Today, my imposter syndrome will just have to go haunt someone else
Today, I’d live not like it’s my last but like I have so many more left to live – carefree and mindlessly
Today, I’ll step out of my comfort zone and promptly step back in if I don’t like it, after all Rome wasn’t built in a day
Today, I’ll go easy on me and enjoy the day just being
That feeling of a song getting stuck in your head on loop
That unbeatable joy of the first sip of coffee ahead of a long and arduous journey
That passing of smiles and knowing nods between colleagues who’re more than just that
The snoring of your partner that’s annoying yet comforting
The routine, the randomness, the rigour, the nostalgia
There’s a little bit of everything packed into a normal day
And would we even want to have it any other way?
In an era of remixes and jazzing it up, of all bang and no buck, of noise and frills, of pompousness and show, there’s some amount of courage that goes into being able to cherish the simple things. Unequivocally and unapologetically. How thrilling it must be to be able to embrace what you like. How cathartic, truly, is knowing what makes your heart sing. How freeing, to not bowing before pressure. How lovely and how fine. How human and how alive.
April for me is a month of uncertainty. The weather’s oscillation between hot and cold keeps me up more than half the night. The sun is warm and the breeze is pleasant. The days are equal parts energising and draining. But when I step out and notice how blue the blue of the skies is, how green the green of the leaves is and how brightly coloured is all of nature, I realise the true splendour of April. It blooms and nurtures. It revitalises and nourishes. April is Mama Earth’s way of readying us for a beautiful year ahead.
You remind me of an old pair of jeans
Slightly worn
Very much faded
Snugly fitting through the various sizes I’ve been over the years
Comfortable, familiar, a go-to when I couldn’t care less
A top or a tee
With flats or heels
Flexible through all my choices
A constant echo through all my voices
You remind me of a pair of old jeans
My favourite pair
For non-English speakers, the word “Purani” in the title means “old” in Hindi. There’s a popular song in India which never fails to fill us all with nostalgia and yearning for the simpler days of our childhood. Of friends made and hearts broken. Of memories and happiness. Do give it a listen on the link below, if you like.