Isn’t ‘new beginnings’ a redundancy?
Or do we all go around chasing old habits, places and people
Time and time again
Swimming in circles
Getting nowhere faster
Content with circuit being our lot?
I think next time
I’d just like to have a beginning
No new beginnings
Begging to begin again
The rising sun brings with it
Hope and joy
A renewed vigour for life
Invincibility and motivation
As if you’re god’s favourite creation
And nothing, almost nothing, is out of your reach
The setting sun speaks to me
Of calm and peace
Of rest, overdue and well deserved
Of satisfaction and bliss
Of a day well lived
Of an evening well loved
And I go to bed content
In the certainty of another sun
Which soon shall rise again
And bring with it
Hope and joy renewed
You ask me if I’m a dreamer or a realist
As if being either could define me in your eyes
Or being both at the same was incredulously impossible
I am a dreamer and a realist
For if you wouldn’t dare to dream
How could you possibly fathom the limits of your reality?
I read and quote Sylvia Plath
Whenever I’m feeling low
I dance on some jazz music
To drown away the blues
I arrange tulips on my desk to remind me of the sun
When the skies are grey outside
And you wonder why your gaslighting
Merely makes me smile?
I lost almost 25 kgs in 2020. More than that, and more importantly, I lost a lot of mental baggage too.
I feel lighter, fitter and healthier than I ever recall feeling.
I smile more widely and laugh more often. I sleep better and talk more politely. My patience and general well being have improved by leaps and bounds.
The only sad part is that it took a soul crunching, time stopping and all around jarring pandemic for me to pause and reset. To focus on and prioritise myself. To work through all the unresolved issues which were underlying the calm exterior I took pride in portraying. To actually process my feelings and emotions through healthy, conversation based and creative outlets.
So in 2021 the only resolution I am going to make is to choose myself. Love myself. Heal myself. Understand myself. Forgive myself. And to grow. To pause, when needed. To listen to myself. To pay attention to my own mind and body.
I hope you’ll be doing the same for yourself too. Because one off resolutions are like putting out small fires while an entire forest burns to ashes. The bigger picture, the important picture is always you and your life.
Yes, of course, set goals for yourself. But resolve to live happily and freely. And then test your resolve to its very limits….just to see it emerge stronger.
P.S. if you’re struggling and need a friend, I’m always ready to listen, chat and offer whatever assistance that’s possible from my end. I am not a proxy therapist, just a willing shoulder to lean on while you catch your breath 🙂
In a universe so infinite
Why would you want to love finitely?
Define yourself with numbers
Like scores, marks, weight, age, people?
Why limit your soul to one astral plane?
Why restrict your knowledge to only that which is defined?
What’s stopping you other than your own self-imposed boundaries?
Even if the universe were to be finite
Why couldn’t you live infinitely?
Why shouldn’t you?
Even if the universe were finite
Go ahead and write your story
On every particle of it
This year has been different, to say the least. We lived through the most unexpected of times, witnessing the very highs and lows of humanity. We disbanded, came together, learned, unlearned and relearned quite a few things during the course of a year. Yet, each one of us, whether doing well or struggling has held out unwavering hope that the next year will bring better tidings.
So for this roller coaster ride called 2020, I have nothing but immense gratitude in my heart. I’ve charted quite a journey within and outside of myself. I feel more blessed than proud of this fact. I have lost, gained and regained a few people along the way. Some for life, invaluably cherished.
With 2021 begins a new chapter of life for me. A shared chapter. One full of hope, love and a sense of belonging. I am quite tickled to see where it will lead. I hope the very same for all of you.
Bring it on 2021, I’ll be doubly armed in my welcome 😊.
In a world where souls never touch by accident
You think our worlds colliding was a mere coincidence?
A cup of coffee and the sea
And a little bit of you and me
A burst of wind blowing towards the land
And the entwining of my fingers with your hand
A setting sun, mirrored across the water
While we look on, marking our happily ever after
He wondered if I’d ever written something with him in mind
Confessing he’d been scouring for a piece of him in every word of my pieces
I could only smile and say no
Little could I tell him though
That his disappointment was misplaced
I yearned to tell him so
I could never do justice to the embers he ignites within my soul
For I’d never be able to write anything for him
There just aren’t enough words
Or lines good enough
To sum him up
So I write
Day and night
In the hope
That he has me tongue tied