The things we think we know
Are the ones we know of the least
For its the things we don’t think we know
Which we make an effort to find out
Study
Observe
And retain
So don’t tell me that you know me, darling
Tell me that you don’t
Atleast then I’d know
You’ll be willing to see me.
No, no,
I am happy
Just don’t go
By my eyes
They’re deceptive
And disloyal
They betray
And can even sway
They hold truths
And lies
In equal measures
They conceal love
And pain
Both as worthy treasures
Believe me
When I say
I’m Happy
Today.
That nagging feeling
Of something about to go horribly awry
Didn’t let me sleep that night
Maybe, it was for the best
Because who knows if I’d dozed off
Would I have woken up as the same person again
In this world of ever changing personalities
I’ve become a stranger
To my own self
And there’s a feeling
That I’m veiwing
My own life as it passes me by
Like a horrible, macabre kaleidoscope
Like an out of body experience
Slightly surreal
Mostly transcendental
I wish I knew
Of what to hope
For the one I see
Or
The one I feel
I’m not two-faced, no
Nor am I unity
For divided I stand
As separate entities
Still lying in wait
To form my true identity
Every crease around my eye
Tells of moment full of joy
Every curve near my mouth
Is a testament of a laugh
Every blemish, every scar,
Every single unhealed mark
Is a story
Ready to burst forth
Listen, if you will
For these aren’t wrinkles
On my face
To show that I survived
But an ode to a life
Well loved, cherished and lived.
In a room with no doors
There’s a window with no bars
Alas, it’s too small to creep through
Yet big enough to see it all
The taste of sweet freedom
Lingers yet on the tongue
The joy of easy escape
Eludes the prisoner
Like the great Houdini
But
In the room with no doors
There’s a window with no bars
And that’s why
I can feel
The walls close in on me.
Into the unknown
Lead me on, love
With gentle caresses
And soothing whispers
Fall in step beside
To turn the tide
Of a broken past
And a shattered heart
Into the unknown, I say
Because whatever else I’ve known
Before you
Couldn’t have been love
For whatever it is that you’ve shown
To me
Can be anything but
So I’ll close my eyes
And hold on tight
No clue where my future lies
But the path of destiny
Goes through you
And by bearing all that came before
I’ve more than paid my due.
Down is up
Up is down
Inside this
Topsy turvy town
Life’s moving way too fast
Yet seems to be eerily still
Stuck in the doldrums
Approaching warp speed
Listen to me ye all
And pay some heed
The hand we’re dealt
Is ours to keep
If that’s your truth
Then no more should you seek
For mountains steep
Can still be scaled
By the power of sheer grit
And a bundle of nerves
Made of steel.
Outside a sleepless, ugly town
In a seedy, shady hotel
There’s a dingy, dirty room
With a single, flickering light bulb
Shedding light on a yellowed, floral wallpaper
Overlooking a squeaky, twin bed
Having a threadbare mattress
And a moth eaten quilt
Adorned with pillows
Permanently depressed
With the impressions of a hundred heads
This place, my dear
Has a thousand bedraggled stories to tell
Of young love
And old-age eccentricity
Of hopes dashed
And the depth of human depravity.
I’d rather be immortalized
In a poor soul’s stirring poetry
Than dance to the rich tunes
Of your false promises
And die a thousand deaths daily.
I knew a little boy once
Tender and caring
Inquisitive and innocent
Big eyes full of love
Big smile free of beguile
He reminded me
Of hugs
Freely given
Of kisses
Softly stolen
In three blinks
However
He grew up
I don’t know him anymore
Big eyes, so deceptive
Big smile, too fake
He wants something from me
I know
But the worst part is
He doesn’t want me
And I can’t let go
Of the ghost of our past
Wishing against all hope
Trying to find that little boy
Who promised a life of joy
Not this man
Who plays with my heart like a toy.
