I often wonder
During endless, sleepless nights,
If I could have done something differently.
Would you not have discarded me then?
Or would you still have found an excuse
To shove me under a carpet
Because out of sight is out of mind?
Then I move on to wondering
If you had done something different
Would that have stirred in me the same thoughts as you?
Would I have become heartless too?
Would I have flinched before inflicting pain on you?
Would I have hesitated before crushing your heart?
Or would I have donned your mantle of mercilessness and shattered you,
Like you demolished me?
It gives me immense pleasure to note
That I am nothing like you would denote.
I loved, I lost and I will love again.
But you, my dear, will never know what it’s like
To love a person with all your might.
And that makes you all the more poorer
For there’s nothing more divine.
So thank you, my love, for making me see
All the reasons why you were wrong for me.
Because now, with my eyes wide open,
I can dare to plunge into the sea
And let it soothe all my injuries.
Then again during endless, sleepless nights
If I had done something differently,
Would I have still found this perfect love for me?
I’d look to my side and see
What destiny always had in store for me
And, with a sigh, I’d keep a watch all night
For when you find what’s worth treasuring,
You can barely let it out of your sight.